Making a few changes

Hey guys!

So I'm making a few changes to adventures with Jess. I will no longer be posting on here and will be posting on my new blog, Inspire to be.... I will be posting more regularly,uploading some videos and more importantly talking about things that inspire me. So come on over and cheek it out.

bye guys

xxx

The most amazing ballet I have ever seen!

Hey guys!!!

So as you can probably tell by the title I have recently been to the theatre to watch the ballet. I went to see Mathew Bourne's Highland fling. It was completely different to what you'd be expecting from a ballet. The story was really easy to follow, It was funny and sometimes even a bit rude. (definitely not something I'd recommend taking children to) 

Even though the story was not very elegant and I did not see a single tutu the dancing was still amazing. This is even something my dad would of enjoyed. I really loved this ballet and don't know how something will ever top how amazing this was. 

bye for now 

xxx

Birthday presents!

Hey guys!

So one of my best friends birthdays is coming up this week and I thought I should share with you guys what I got her. I'm not that good at getting presents but I really like what I got her. 

So the first thing I did was find a shoe box, yea I know not it's a very nice present but it gets better I promise. I got some tissue paper, I did have orange and yellow ones but unfortunately I left it on the bus but luckily some was already in the box and I my mum had some to spare. 

I decided I wanted to get her a box of little things. The first thing I got her was a victorious box set from play.com and I know your probably wondering why I would get her that considering shes turning 15 but it is one of her favourite shows. 

I got her one of the little hand clapper things you got in party bags when you were little just because it reminded me of a joke we had and the time we went to see little mix who she absolutely adores. 

I got her the Maybelline falsies flared mascara. Which is one of the only things she said she wanted. 

I got the sex bomb bath bomb from lush as it is one of her favourites and she loves lush products. When I was in there I was so tempted to get myself the popcorn lip scrub but I managed to persuade myself not to as I had already bought a bit too much. I'll been doing a haul video some point soon for you guys. 

She also asked for the 13, which is a musical script/lyric book thingymabob. Which I will ordored on amazon. This is one of the things she asked for as she is really into drama just like me. 

I'm also going to print out this picture. 

This is a really special picture to her as little mix and Ariana Grande are her favourite people.

So I wrapped these all up and stuck a bit of paper to each one of them. There was a special set of instructions to how she opened them and each note said something sweet.

bye for now

xxx

April favorites!

Hey guys, so the year is whizzing by and it's already May. I was planning a video for you guys but sadly I am ill so I'll stick to typing.

So lets start with the beauty favourites. Now this product is kind of a cheat as I only got it a few days ago, it's the Rimmel London Apocalips lip gloss in Nova. When I first saw these I wanted one straight away, quite a few of the colours were a bit too bright for my liking so I wanted something a bit less bold. When I first swatched Nova I wasn't too sure of it as it was quite pinky and I wasn't too sure how it would look on my skin tone. I actually really love the colour on me and really want to try some other shades as it wasn't as bright as I thought it would be. The formula is really good, I feel it moisturises my lips, it really pigmented and wears really well.

For my eyes I have been loving the chocolate box eyeshadow trio by MUA. I just love the products from MUA they're really cheap yet have such good quality products. I didn't have much time to go out and buy new products last month so I don't have many beauty favourites.

Now on to my non beauty favourites. I've been loving Icebreaker sours, they're American sweets so they are a bit expensive in the shops that do sell them but they're really refreshing and I like them.

On to music, this month I have been listening to quite a bit of Macklemore. My favourite two are and we danced and same love. I love the lyrics to his songs and I just love his songs.

I adore the music video for this it's sooo cute!

So those are some of the things I have been loving this month 

bye for now

xxx

The best day

I'm five years old it's getting cold I got my big coat on.  I hear you laugh I look up smiling at you. I run and run.  

The best day is defiantly one of my favourite Taylor Swift songs and it just so happens that today has been one of those best days. In fact This week has been well one of those best weeks.  

 The video for this is adorable.

You can buy it on itunes here.

I've been in a country mood this week. I've been putting my country playlist on shuffle, having a hoedown in my bedroom and watched footloose. Which I would say was my third favourite movie. (My first is Titanic and second is the time travellers wife.) And unsurprisingly I have been listening to a Taylor Swift song that relates to me perfectly right now. The way I loved you, the lines:

He can't see the smile I'm faking 

And my hearts not breaking 

Cause I'm not feeling anything at all

And you were wild and crazy 

Just so frustrating intoxicating 

Got away by some mistake...

Explain my life perfectly at the moment and I just love it when I find one of those songs. And just in case you were wondering, yes I am a swiftie but I do prefer her older music. 

So yesterday I found out that in June I will be having my Jazz exam. As well as my Ballet exam. I will also be doing the senior review for my contemporary class and I'm in my school production of Gregory's girl, which is also in June. 

June is a very busy month for me this year. But it's also an really exiting month. I'm going to the theatre twice with my school. I'm going to see 39 steps, which has 4 actors playing 139 characters and the week after I am going to see the Women in black, which has only two actors. So it will be really interesting to see how they manage to play so many characters with such a little cast. 

On  the subject of theatre I am going to see Michael Bourns highland fling, which I am mega excited for. I might do a review on theses shows but I can already tell I'm going to love the Highland fling. 

So as you can tell I have a lot going on the next few months. Which sadly means I wont be able to go to Normandy as I have to go to all my lessons to be able to do my exams but on the positive side it's not too long to go till my birthday.

bye for now

xxx

Anxiety sucks

Thinking about it I have no idea when my anxiety started. I guess I've always been scared of everything but I always thought I was just a massive wimp. My mum has always brought me up to be scared of the big bad world around me and I guess it's kinda stuck. I can't really say if that's the reason for sure though.

Ever since I was little I would make a bigger fuss of things then I should of. I guess that I've just always been a drama queen but the reason I make such a big deal of all these things is I take everything I'm told to heart. I've always cared way too much of what people thought about me. The smallest little thing could set me off for weeks.

My primary was horrible, I hated it. I always had really bad stomach aches for no reason and found myself crying my eyes out for a lot of the time. Usually it was just stupid little things but I just felt the need to be liked. I hated the idea of people not liking me and always suspected people were plotting against me.

All my main worries have been about what other people thought of me. I make my problems ten times bigger than they should be, any happy time I have is sooner or later interrupted by horrible "what ifs". I've though about the what ifs for almost all of my life but they've only recently started developing into anxiety attacks.

It takes the average person five to ten minuets to fall asleep, it takes me around an hour. I'm put completely off my appetite. I can't handle being on public transport without having an anxiety episode and I'm petrified to leave my house every morning. I hate the feeling of panicking in front of  people. I hate the idea of people seeing me like that. If I panic in front of people it often gets worse, I no longer end up thinking about the what ifs, I think about all the horrible things people will say about me and how much of a drama queen I am for panicking over such a small thing.

An anxiety attack is one of the worse things I have experienced. The best last about five to ten minuets and then stop. The worse one lasted about two hours. Half the time I have no idea why they start, I just feel dizzy, stuffy and get a headache. The walls close in, and sooner or later I find it hard to breath. I start tapping my fingers and can't really control the movement in my arms. I can't even pick up a pencil.  Then someone notices and they ask questions. I usually just say I'm fine.

Your probably wondering why I'm sharing this on my blog. I know it's not my usual type of post. It's started to feel like I can't tell anyone. My friends just think I'm over exaggerating, my parents don't realise they're happening almost everyday. It feels like no one I talk to understands how scared and alone I feel. I've been to the doctors and they referred me to a psychologist. I'm just waiting for my parents to book an appointment.

Maybe I am over exaggerating. What if I really am just a massive drama queen? What if I'm going to have to deal with theses everyday for the rest of my life?

goodbye for now

xxx

My teachers pros and cons

So sadly the holidays are over and I'm back school. Which I guess is good and bad. Since it's my first week back I thought I'd talk about the pros and cons of some of my teachers.

Pro - I know strict teachers can often be annoying but most of them only want you to do the best you can. Although maths is not the best thing to have on a Monday morning I do quite like my teacher. She is strict but she not just for the sake of it, she likes to push us to our full potential. Which is a lot better than the teachers who sit back and let you get away with anything.

Con - I would have to say my physics teacher is one of the worst teachers ever. There is only me and one other girl in my class, the rest are boys. He pays no attention to me and my friend. He just walks past us as if we're not there.I haven't learnt anything this year and neither have most of my class. The main thing that annoys me about him is he doesn't like to answer questions, how are we suppose to learn if we're not allowed to ask for help.

Pro - I love it when teachers really connect with there students. It's nice every once in a while to have a little chat about things you enjoy or are interested in. School can be a lot of hard work it's more bearable if you can have a good laugh every now and again.

Con -  There is always at least one teacher who tends to go a little bit off tangent. I mean it's good every now and again but we're supposed to be learning about french not your personal life.

Pro - It's always great when you get a teacher who understands you and what you're going through. This year is the first year of curriculum for excellence. If you haven't heard of it already it's the new curriculum for the Scottish schools. My year is the first year to go through it at my schools so it's all a bit confusing. To be honest to begin with not a lot of the teachers knew what they were going to do with us. A lot of our teachers tried there best to get information and understood that it was very frustrating to not know what was happening to us next year. It was nice that the teachers understood how annoyed we all were and tried to get things sorted as soon as possible.

Con - This is probably one of the things that annoys me the most. Some of my teachers tend to come in and yell at us for no reason. I know every now and again people get important personal problems that need to be dealt with but there is no reason to let your home problems merge into your work life.

goodbye for now

xxx