The best day

I'm five years old it's getting cold I got my big coat on.  I hear you laugh I look up smiling at you. I run and run.  

The best day is defiantly one of my favourite Taylor Swift songs and it just so happens that today has been one of those best days. In fact This week has been well one of those best weeks.  

 The video for this is adorable.

You can buy it on itunes here.

I've been in a country mood this week. I've been putting my country playlist on shuffle, having a hoedown in my bedroom and watched footloose. Which I would say was my third favourite movie. (My first is Titanic and second is the time travellers wife.) And unsurprisingly I have been listening to a Taylor Swift song that relates to me perfectly right now. The way I loved you, the lines:

He can't see the smile I'm faking 

And my hearts not breaking 

Cause I'm not feeling anything at all

And you were wild and crazy 

Just so frustrating intoxicating 

Got away by some mistake...

Explain my life perfectly at the moment and I just love it when I find one of those songs. And just in case you were wondering, yes I am a swiftie but I do prefer her older music. 

So yesterday I found out that in June I will be having my Jazz exam. As well as my Ballet exam. I will also be doing the senior review for my contemporary class and I'm in my school production of Gregory's girl, which is also in June. 

June is a very busy month for me this year. But it's also an really exiting month. I'm going to the theatre twice with my school. I'm going to see 39 steps, which has 4 actors playing 139 characters and the week after I am going to see the Women in black, which has only two actors. So it will be really interesting to see how they manage to play so many characters with such a little cast. 

On  the subject of theatre I am going to see Michael Bourns highland fling, which I am mega excited for. I might do a review on theses shows but I can already tell I'm going to love the Highland fling. 

So as you can tell I have a lot going on the next few months. Which sadly means I wont be able to go to Normandy as I have to go to all my lessons to be able to do my exams but on the positive side it's not too long to go till my birthday.

bye for now

xxx

Anxiety sucks

Thinking about it I have no idea when my anxiety started. I guess I've always been scared of everything but I always thought I was just a massive wimp. My mum has always brought me up to be scared of the big bad world around me and I guess it's kinda stuck. I can't really say if that's the reason for sure though.

Ever since I was little I would make a bigger fuss of things then I should of. I guess that I've just always been a drama queen but the reason I make such a big deal of all these things is I take everything I'm told to heart. I've always cared way too much of what people thought about me. The smallest little thing could set me off for weeks.

My primary was horrible, I hated it. I always had really bad stomach aches for no reason and found myself crying my eyes out for a lot of the time. Usually it was just stupid little things but I just felt the need to be liked. I hated the idea of people not liking me and always suspected people were plotting against me.

All my main worries have been about what other people thought of me. I make my problems ten times bigger than they should be, any happy time I have is sooner or later interrupted by horrible "what ifs". I've though about the what ifs for almost all of my life but they've only recently started developing into anxiety attacks.

It takes the average person five to ten minuets to fall asleep, it takes me around an hour. I'm put completely off my appetite. I can't handle being on public transport without having an anxiety episode and I'm petrified to leave my house every morning. I hate the feeling of panicking in front of  people. I hate the idea of people seeing me like that. If I panic in front of people it often gets worse, I no longer end up thinking about the what ifs, I think about all the horrible things people will say about me and how much of a drama queen I am for panicking over such a small thing.

An anxiety attack is one of the worse things I have experienced. The best last about five to ten minuets and then stop. The worse one lasted about two hours. Half the time I have no idea why they start, I just feel dizzy, stuffy and get a headache. The walls close in, and sooner or later I find it hard to breath. I start tapping my fingers and can't really control the movement in my arms. I can't even pick up a pencil.  Then someone notices and they ask questions. I usually just say I'm fine.

Your probably wondering why I'm sharing this on my blog. I know it's not my usual type of post. It's started to feel like I can't tell anyone. My friends just think I'm over exaggerating, my parents don't realise they're happening almost everyday. It feels like no one I talk to understands how scared and alone I feel. I've been to the doctors and they referred me to a psychologist. I'm just waiting for my parents to book an appointment.

Maybe I am over exaggerating. What if I really am just a massive drama queen? What if I'm going to have to deal with theses everyday for the rest of my life?

goodbye for now

xxx

My teachers pros and cons

So sadly the holidays are over and I'm back school. Which I guess is good and bad. Since it's my first week back I thought I'd talk about the pros and cons of some of my teachers.

Pro - I know strict teachers can often be annoying but most of them only want you to do the best you can. Although maths is not the best thing to have on a Monday morning I do quite like my teacher. She is strict but she not just for the sake of it, she likes to push us to our full potential. Which is a lot better than the teachers who sit back and let you get away with anything.

Con - I would have to say my physics teacher is one of the worst teachers ever. There is only me and one other girl in my class, the rest are boys. He pays no attention to me and my friend. He just walks past us as if we're not there.I haven't learnt anything this year and neither have most of my class. The main thing that annoys me about him is he doesn't like to answer questions, how are we suppose to learn if we're not allowed to ask for help.

Pro - I love it when teachers really connect with there students. It's nice every once in a while to have a little chat about things you enjoy or are interested in. School can be a lot of hard work it's more bearable if you can have a good laugh every now and again.

Con -  There is always at least one teacher who tends to go a little bit off tangent. I mean it's good every now and again but we're supposed to be learning about french not your personal life.

Pro - It's always great when you get a teacher who understands you and what you're going through. This year is the first year of curriculum for excellence. If you haven't heard of it already it's the new curriculum for the Scottish schools. My year is the first year to go through it at my schools so it's all a bit confusing. To be honest to begin with not a lot of the teachers knew what they were going to do with us. A lot of our teachers tried there best to get information and understood that it was very frustrating to not know what was happening to us next year. It was nice that the teachers understood how annoyed we all were and tried to get things sorted as soon as possible.

Con - This is probably one of the things that annoys me the most. Some of my teachers tend to come in and yell at us for no reason. I know every now and again people get important personal problems that need to be dealt with but there is no reason to let your home problems merge into your work life.

goodbye for now

xxx

Clinique 7 day scrub cream review

I have been getting a few dry patches on my cheeks and chin and a few blemishes on my forehead. My mum suggested I use some of her Clinique 7 day scrub cream rinse-off formula. There's been such a difference in my skin it's unbelievable.

This scrub has something for everyone. I love the fact that it's a cream scrub, as it helps moisturiser absorb more easily. Its also clears pores and helps with oily skin. It claims to refines and lessens fine lines but I'm still young, so I don't know if it does or not. I applied it like a normal scrub and I could really tell that it had worked. My skin looked so much clearer and a lot brighter. I was so surprised that my blemishes had gone by the end of the week. I would defiantly recommend this for all skin types. 

* Update *

I am now officially a dance leader! This past week has been absolutely amazing.  By Friday you could see such a difference in all of the girls. I have made some amazing friends and will never forget this experience. Me and some of my friends are hoping to show off our new leadership skills by starting a dance club at our school. 

This is a terrible photo of me but it's the YDance crew!

bye for now 

xxx

My dance holiday

So the holidays are finally here! Two weeks off not having to get up at 6 in the morning. It's nice to have a lie in every once in a while. So far the holidays have gone by soooooo fast. I've been spending time with family and friends and just doing what normal teens do. This week I'm doing a dancer leadership course and can't wait to tell you all of the exciting things that I'm sure we'll be doing.

The dancer leadership course I'm doing is run by Ydance. Ydance is Scotland's national youth dance organisation and is really cool. The instructors are from Glasgow and have awesome accents, I love accents! We have already learnt so much and I know by the end of the week I will know so much more then I did before. 

We have already learnt a Bollywood and Swing dance which was really cool and Jumpstyle. Jumpstyle comes from Belgium, Germany and France. It's a sharp edgy dance style and as the name suggests it also quite jumpy. I really enjoyed learning this as it's not something I've done before. If you want to see what Jumpstyle is like I suggest you cheek out this video of some amazing dancing. 

I've also learnt great leadership skills and each day passes by so quickly. I have made so many new friends and so many new skills. I definitely recommend doing something like this if you get the opportunity to. The cost does vary for me it was £20 as the government are paying for some of it but the course at my dance school is £200 though. However my dance school does have dancers who go on to the west end so it is probably one of the more expensive schools in my area. One of my friend is doing the same course as me and is getting it for free so the price really does depend on where you go. It is really worth it as you get 5 days jammed pack with dancing and pick up so many new skills. It even looks really good on your CV.

bye for now

xxx

Let the adventures begin

Welcome to Adventures with Jess.

My name's Jess as you have probably been able to guess, I'm turning 15 in a couple of months and live in Scotland, which kinda sucks as the start of spring has been filled snow but I love where I live and the people here. I am surrounded by so many talented people and well I'm just boring old me. So I thought I'd stop being boring and start having some adventures. 

 That's me up there!


So this is where I will be posting about my adventurous adventures or not so adventurous adventures. I'll be keeping you up to date on all my favourite things. From beauty products to holidays in the sunshine. This year I've got  a trip to Normandy just before the summer and I am mega excited as I'm going on a Disney cruise in October! I am a massive Disney fan so I will probably be doing some Disney posts now and again.

This is the ship I'll be going on.

I'll also be posting beauty product reviews and anything I find interesting enough to tell you guys about. I will probably be posting at least more than once a week but I can't promise that. If there is anything you'd like me to review or post about leave me a comment and I will get too it as soon as I can.

Bye for now

xxx